Renunciation

To Know the Truth of Life

– Jīvanam

one must face reality.

Reality is known as Kāla

— Time itself.
And its truth is realized only when

one stands utterly alone

— at the still point

where even the breath halts.
For a true seeker,

death arrives early

— not in physical form,

but as an inner crossing,

when the breath is held.
You must face death to know the truth of life.

You do not experience death just once

—do remember this.

But do you think it is easy to face death?

Your attachments are like burdens

— a mountain of baggage strapped to your shoulders

— while you attempt to climb higher.
You cannot move forward,

because the weight is too great.
You cannot soar as your inner being longs to,

because gravity

— gurutvākārṣaṇam

— pulls you down.

To become light,

there is no other way but to drop the baggage.

And that baggage is your karma & attachments—
Yours, your parents’, every bond you’ve ever formed.
Every life you’ve stepped into,

every desire you’ve entertained

— all form karmic threads that bind you & you are attached to it.
This is your karmic baggage & attachment.

You will understand this during your first awakening.
You will begin to see the depth of the Jain path

— why they cover their mouths with cloth.
Because every act

— even a word that inspires,

motivates, or provokes desire in another

— whether family, friend,

or stranger —
leaves its karmic imprint.
You are responsible for that karmaphala as well.

Now, the most crucial factor in taking

the path of renunciation is this:
In the sādhana of any deity

— in any true path

— you must pass through dhyāna.

This dhyāna may come through mantra, breath, or any method.
But once you truly enter,

you begin to descend within

— into the caves of your inner darkness.
And in those depths,

whatever lies dormant in your mind will rise —
words from books, talks from other seekers, random impressions, fantasies

— even filth.

If your inner mind is filled with such distractions —
then in that moment,

the mind wins.
It overpowers you.

If you have fed it with sensual imagery,

romanticized assumptions,

or obsessive pleasures —
these will appear during your meditation.
And not as mere thoughts —
They may distort your subtle body,

disrupt your nāḍīs,
and result in fierce consequences:
neural imbalances,

altered consciousness,

even coma —
realities that cannot be expressed or easily healed.

So before you reach such states unprepared —
you must enter the wisdom of the Tripura Rahasya.
Only then can your foundation be rightly set.